102: Uncertainty

Today I’m just feeling a little down. Of the 9 eggs they retrieved, 8 fertilized. However, one is abnormal, 3 are fragmented and very poor quality, and the other 4 are ok. I keep wondering if we’d have had more, or better quality, eggs and embryos if they’d have retrieved all the eggs. 

I decided to send a message to Roxanne, explaining how I’m feeling. I don’t trust Dr. Berga. She did our retrieval, and told Shaun it went smoothly, when it didn’t. I don’t know that she tried her best to get the eggs, or if she just gave up since she wasn’t personally or emotionally invested in our case. Dr. Berga is supposed to do our transfer, but I just don’t think I can face her.