Post 75: freaking out

Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh! OH MY GOSH!!!!! After 34 cycles, something happened yesterday that I was NOT expecting!! I went to work at the YMCA, and when I got home, I decided to take a pregnancy test. There was no reason to take one - I really was just double checking that I was going to be disappointed at my blood draw on Monday. However, that's not what happened! I peed on the cheap, Amazon special pregnancy test at 2PM. I sat on the toilet and stared at it for about 30 seconds and when nothing popped up, I put it down, and wiped. Unfortunately, I had pink spotting when I wiped, so I was sure that the test was negative. To my surprise, around the 90 second mark, I thought I started to see something. I stared down the test, and was in shock as I began seeing a second line! I could NOT believe what I was seeing! I've never seen a second line on a test, and I was sure that it was probably just a fluke. 

Once I was absolutely sure that the test really was positive, and my eyes weren't just playing tricks on me, I called Shaun. He had told me not to test, but to wait for my bloodwork on Monday. So when I called him, I started with, "So, I just went to the bathroom, and I'm spotting." His response was, "Ok, it's probably just the drugs, maybe you should call Roxy." I then followed up with, "but I took a pregnancy test, and I swear there's a second line." I believe he was in shock. He was with a customer, so he again said, "Call Roxy." 

I knew that calling Roxy on a weekend wouldn't be practical, so I sent her an email. I confessed that I took a test even though IVF patients are supposed to refrain due to false readings, and asked her about tr spotting. About ab hour later, she responded and said that it sounds like implantation bleeding, and not to worry. Well, I believe she was right. I took a test four hours later, and it was positive again!!! I was in complete disbelief. And, again, when I wiped, I had spotting. This time, it was definitely red blood though. So, I sent David a text message informing him of my positive test and the spotting. He reassured me that it was normal, even when I told him it had gotten worse, and the blood was darker. Having David confirm that the darker spotting was still normal definitely made me relax. 

I decided to test again right before bed. I made Shaun watch since he'd missed the first two tests. He was definitely shocked that a second line was there, but said that it was so faint he wasn't sure if it counted. I don't see a faint line - I see a definite line - but, boys will be boys. I also know that he doesn't want me to be too excited since it's still really early, and a lot could go wrong. 

I had Shaun pick up digital pregnancy tests on his way home from work yesterday for me to take this morning. He said that if I got a "pregnant" on the test, then he would be happy with me. Otherwise, we needed to wait until Monday to celebrate. Well, I took both the digital test and a cheap test, and again the results were in our favor! My cheap test line is continuing to get darker, and the digital test officially says "pregnant." I am over the moon, in shock, and am so excited for my bloodwork tomorrow!