Post 55: Crappy Hormones

I about had a breakdown in the middle of Belk today. I ran by the mall to check on the studio, to see if we could set up early since I have a doctor's appointment early tomorrow morning. The party in our room had just ended, so they told me to come back in a few hours so they'd have time to clean. I decided to look for Christmas presents since I had some time to kill. 

I started out looking for Shaun. I figured I'd find a shirt or sweater for him in Belk, and slowly started wandering through the store. I didn't find anything that piqued my interest, but decided to keep looking since there's still quite a few people on my list. I glanced through housewares, and then headed to the children's section to see if there were any good sales for Lilly. 

I was doing well with not thinking about the baby section until I came across this outfit. 

I fell in love with it, and it took everything in me to not buy it. Had it been in a larger size, I would have taken it home. I then realized that I needed a Christmas gift for my BFF, who just found out her baby is a girl. As I stared at the baby outfits, and thought of my friend being able to use them, I about lost it. The disappointment of not being a mother sneaks up on you when you least expect it. I was doing well, and was excited to look for the new baby, until I fell in love with the outfit, and was reminded of what I don't have. I think it may be time for another bathtub crying session. Crap. These hormones suck.